I haven't blogged in forever. So many things have happened but whatever, i'm not writing it here cause i'm lazy. Prelims just ended, i'm tired but happy. Had lunch with Alyssa, amanda, LEGS (Lianne Eliza Gladys Samantha), Becky. Billy Bombers portion is so big but food's scrump. Lunch was fun.Had calamari, and this yucky drink called fruity Billy ( obviously I didn't know it was yucky when i ordered it). I didn't know the stirrer was a stirrer, i stirred my soda with the straw and i thought the plastic stirrer was edible.I got laughed at.Then we decided to walk around.I think Anne, Sam and Li got bored cause we were looking for dresses for Al and Eliza for grad night. (SORRY!) YUPPPPS, so we found a couple of dresses and we're all happy. I like shopping for other people, i like making people happy cause my name's GLAD.Oh yes, something super funny happened when Tan and Al were changing.Think this was in MANGO. I sang along (quite loudly) with the song they were playing, can't remember what song. And the radio/ CD just stopped playing. I really don't think my singing is that bad.Me and Eliza went to play at the arcade for a while, shoot shoot shoot then we both died, i don't think we should have. We fought a good fight.Then we drove cars. Zoom zoom zoom! (that was Eliza's car). Mine was like poof poof poof! Then i got disqualified cause I drove topo slowly. Whoops.

I wanna go ECP with my clique like last time again, i miss us all.

jan02.2008 I feel old. I can't believe I'm like in sec4 now!WOAH!!!I was really happy to see my friends/acquaintances and even some teachers.HAHA it's not what you think.I won't blog about teachers cause it's really risky, yupp.I don't miss school at all cause i hate studying, no one does, especially in sec 4 cause there's O levels )): Left class to teach sec 1s a couple of cheers,quite unresponsive, sadly.Oh wells it's their 1st day in sec school.I don't remember being so quiet though.It's freaky, i don't like it.Then went back to class for chem lesson,our teacher's Mrs Selbem,i was under the impression that she was Indian,don't ask why and then we went for recess and then alyssa said we had to go up to the dance studio but we wewn't supposed to go until like 1 period later,hahaha al, you dumb  dumb.Then we got nagged by Mrs Thevathasan cause we were late.Had to do this math test until the bell rang and we went off for the principal's address.Rushed off after that to teach more campfire songs.My class was 1/8 today.Aiyooo so quiet but they're a nice bunch of sec1s so far i suppose.Went back to class and Mrs Low was talking about prep for self awareness camp,I'm in FOOD comm.I love food,I love food, I love food.HEH HEH HEH.And we got released like 20 minutes late, not surprisingly.Went to meet Tim after that,today's 2 months.Ate at fish and co,CALAMARI is MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.haha hung around a bit then went home.Oh Tim, thank you for staying up all night to do my present.It's very nice, I like it a lot.(((:  There's 118 months left.Ily.

It's no secret that I'm with Timothy Titus Yap Hern Pei now. I love him. This is my first real serious relationship. And it's the most difficult. I've never faced so much opposition before, only my clique, amanda, val and al and ena are supportive of it.I know my parents are concerned about me but it sometimes comes on too strong and it sucks to not have your support, You acknowledge it but i can tell you rather he never came.My church friends, their expressions, sarcasm and disapporving glances were stone cold.Fuck. I don't need your approval.I love him. As Ena said, it really is NONE OF YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS.My maid spied on me, yes he was hugging me and carrying me but so what. I already told you mum, you already know so why only question me when my maid told you. It's my business.You say i'll be sad when we breakup, I know i'll be fuckign sad, But since when did i bother you when i was sad. since when did you even care, fuck. all i know is i love hima nd he loves me right now so i'll bear the consequences myself when it's over. thank you for your support. i love you. fuck.

I think i'm the last one to blog about this, oh man. Alright, yesterday was so fun, lianne, sam, anne, gian, val, clare, becky,manda and al. Ojay la, we didn't spend every second together but it was still fun. Thank you ANNE for giving me a lift to Bedok MRT, i don't know if you saw but i slipped a bit after getting out of the car, haha that was quite embarrassing.  And VAL, you are not oily, don't worry anyway if you were, I'm sure Preston wouldn't mind, he's so oily anyway, i don't think he'll realise, he might even be the one dripping oil all over ECP. And LIANNE, I do hope you are okay, even though me and CLARE weren't there to see you immediately, we tried to get there ASAP. Please rest well and  take care cause we might all faint when we get our results back on Wednesday. Although you won't faint, cause you'll do well as usual, smart girl. Oh and a very happy belated birthday to you too! MINE'S NEXT! And CLARE THE GOOSE,  Thanks for being my tanning and walking partner! It was very fun, even though i did not get very tan, but i did get a bit of shirt tan y'know, the spaghetti strap tan. My chest did not get tanner i think ): At least yours did, i don't think i should have said that, but since i did, never mind. HAHA, let's compare tans on tuesday, i hope it won't fade by then. Remember ar, sit together for injections. To Becky and Al, thanks for walking with me back to the shelter and being bitchy to cheena ah lians on the way, argh i can't stand hazel eyed hottie. And to the rest of the clique, thanks for making the day so fun, I love you all!  And phototaking was fun too, with clare constantly forgetting to put the timer thing! And i hate my slippers, everytime i tried to jump, my slipper flew off. Damn slipper,  it made me get blisters too. I can't wait for out next big clique outing, and I WANT PHOTOS, THANK YOU (((:

So much has changed but there's still love among us . And that's why it hurts because I love all of you so much and I really do. I talked to Val that day, she noticed, I think some of us noticed, how many do? We're drifting and I'm not helping because everytime I fail, I feel more and more inadequate and when you know someone chooses someone over you, it fucking hurts, so I'm just taking everything as it comes and I hope by some miracle, our friendship can tide over this whole episode. I can't stand it, I've just notcied but it seems like eternity.

Well, you're different, you've changed and you're not who you used to be. Are you okay? Well, i hope you are. Sometimes I catch a few fleeting glimpses of  who you used to be and I wished you could still be the girl I used to know and love. Maybe something's happened but I probably don't know. I wouldn't, I don't know half the things people are talking about, I can tell that people are getting exasperated and irritated. Everyone feels so different, so distant, I can't feel the closeness anymore. I can talk comfortably and hold a casual long conversation like I did with you last time. It's like I belong but I don't, I can get along with almost everyone but I'm not particularly close to anyone. I wish I could still be where and who I was last year, everyone's changed, even myself, I can't even recognise people I thought I knew anymore, I can't identify with myself, what the fuck has happened? I don't know. I thought I had changed for the better, getting myself busy with stuff, taking on extra responsibilities and all but maybe that decision was just wrong. I would give up anything, anything that has any value or importance to me to return to last year. It's been a fucking half-a-year, and maybe I just missed out on so much, just being busy with stuff. I regret.

I'm really bored la, sighhhh
There's only training once a week and the last one was super painful i swear
(although I kind of cheated for the split split thing)
And I REALLY regret saying no pain no gain
And I like Coach Michelle's shorts but she got them from Taiwan so I can't get them
Damn.
Okay, now. NE. Mr Tan pulled out, Lianne and Alyssa cannot do because of promenade, means NE is going to be really boring. 
I realised that there are 30+ pages to study for SS but I kind of studied that before but it was the start of the year which means I would have forgotten chapter 2 by now.
And my mum's going to put me on a low-carb, high fibre diet. I think I'm going to die. I love food and I abhore vegies. 
I must not lose focus, I must not succumb to temptation. I will stop after I've reached 45kg. I can do this, yes I can.
Or at least, I will TRY. hahaha

I'm not myself, i feel weird and angry. Fuck the world. Fuck. I hate the world and the world hates me. I get irritated so easily, it's like every small thing pisses the fuck outta me. Why? Dammit.

It's 10th of July. Does it mean anything to you at all? Because it has been exactly one year and the pain still burns like fuck.
I told myself I won't miss you but I remember what it feels like beside you
After you walked out of my life, i never had a proper relationship, you're the fucking reason why i don't want a steady relationship anymore. 
You aren't perfect, far from it in fact but i never blamed you for it. I did my best.
FUCK.
okay. enough. You sound pathetic Gladys Seah, you can do much better than him.

Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:

so who's ur new boyfriend

gladys alexandria seah; GAS Faustaaaa says:

no one, today is my one year anniversary breakup with gabriel

Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:

U ACTUALLY REMEMBERED?

gladys alexandria seah; GAS Faustaaaa says:

yeah

gladys alexandria seah; GAS Faustaaaa says:

i fucking loved him la more than anyone

Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:

well u know.

Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:

to tell u the truth

Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:

i think gabriel was playing with u

gladys alexandria seah; GAS Faustaaaa says:

no surprise, he isn't the only one

Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:

name another.

gladys alexandria seah; GAS Faustaaaa says:

not so nice seeing that you know most of them

Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:

really?!

Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:

i only know one what

Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:

gabriel

Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:

its ok u can tell me

gladys alexandria seah; GAS Faustaaaa says:

i don't want to, but I played too la, i'm not innocent myself, maybe i do deserved to be played

Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:

i see

Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:

annndd because after he broke up with u like 1 day later he was chasing sarah

gladys alexandria seah; GAS Faustaaaa says:

yeah i guessed as much. sigh, are you going for his party?

Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:

yea

Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:

im organising

Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:

relax ok hun?

Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:

anyway

Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:

i gtg

Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:

bye

Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:

talk to u tomorrow

gladys alexandria seah; GAS Faustaaaa says:

okay byebye

Now I know. Fuckit. Just fucking get out of my mind and get out of my mind, dammit. I hate you. I hate you.

This Saturday, i'm gonna be so busy
The Twisters are going to perform in Ngee Ann city for the SYF closing ceremony.
Shit la now I can't watch Harry potter with clique, damn.
After that I have to chose whether I want to go for Gabriel's party, Anne's party or the gathering with all the neighbours.
Okay the gathering with neighbours is out because all the aunties and ah sohs going to be there and they are going to nag, complain, compare and be aunties.Mum says I can misss it so that's fine.
Okay Gabriel's party, ermmmm maybe i'll pass, I just don't want or can't bear to see some things.
Anne Xue's party, okay I'll go. YAY! 

Boys suck.
Smile.

I have blogged in FOREVER
but I REALLY want to remember this
Ij Twisters. I always dreaded training until this year. I never thought I'd be so attached to cheer, but now I can't emphasise how important cheer - the whole squad, coach, the tough training, the bitching is to me. I hated the people, well most of them. Thought they were the bitchiest people in the whole school, they had problems with me too. But now after one full month and all the shit, pain, happiness, relief, shock, so many emotions we endured together, I realised how much I was going to miss them. Especially my seniors, I'm sorry for being such an ass, I really love all of you and every single one of you made a difference in my life. When the results were announced, we got second, as a team. We cried, all for different reasons, I saw that that performance was the last we would ever perform together as the IJ TWISTERS, and all the talks, miss tiru and coach telling us well done, that we brought them pride and all made me cry. I guess Friday was just really emotional la. I love the TWISTERS, it has become more than a CCA to me, i realised that I had been going for training not because I had to but because I wanted to. Next year is my final year in IJ and my final year in the Twisters, I really want to contribute and help to bring back the championship. It's going to be really hard without YVELYN, CLAUDIA PHUAH, PHYLLICIA, JILL, MICHELLE MICHAEL, NATALIE CHAN, ALYSSA, sorry if i missed out your name but you guys are really the best in the squad, how are we going to win without you, most of you have been in cheer since i was sec1, i can't imagine cheering without you screaming at me, encouraging me and just making cheer such a wonderful cca, thank you. 

Shabooyah sha sha shabooyah roll call
my name is gladys , yeah
they say I'm stupid, yeah
but everyone knows, yeah
that I have spirit, YEAH!

To Whitely, thanks for letting us use your hall, training with you guys was really fun, I love your SYF cheer!
To Chong Boon, you're a GREAT squad, you will do MUCH BETTER next year, cheer up guys!
To MGS, congratulations, I'm sure you gusy trained really hard!
To the Twisters, I can't say anything good enough but thank you so much, I love you forever.

To Karlo and Leonard, thank you for the banner and for coming down to support me, I really appreciated it. Dinner was fun too, with you guys eating SO MUCH. And thank you Nigel, Aaron lee, Nerissa, Theresa, Darren, Karlo and Leonard again. You guys rock and thank you for the flowers and twisties banner, i finished the twisters already. haha

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