So much has changed but there's still love among us . And that's why it hurts because I love all of you so much and I really do. I talked to Val that day, she noticed, I think some of us noticed, how many do? We're drifting and I'm not helping because everytime I fail, I feel more and more inadequate and when you know someone chooses someone over you, it fucking hurts, so I'm just taking everything as it comes and I hope by some miracle, our friendship can tide over this whole episode. I can't stand it, I've just notcied but it seems like eternity.