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today

Tue, 16 Sep 2008 13:40:11 GMT

I haven't blogged in forever. So many things have happened but whatever, i'm not writing it here cause i'm lazy. Prelims just ended, i'm tired but happy. Had lunch with Alyssa, amanda, LEGS (Lianne Eliza Gladys Samantha), Becky. Billy Bombers portion is so big but food's scrump. Lunch was fun.Had calamari, and this yucky drink called fruity Billy ( obviously I didn't know it was yucky when i ordered it). I didn't know the stirrer was a stirrer, i stirred my soda with the straw and i thought the plastic stirrer was edible.I got laughed at.Then we decided to walk around.I think Anne, Sam and Li got bored cause we were looking for dresses for Al and Eliza for grad night. (SORRY!) YUPPPPS, so we found a couple of dresses and we're all happy. I like shopping for other people, i like making people happy cause my name's GLAD.Oh yes, something super funny happened when Tan and Al were changing.Think this was in MANGO. I sang along (quite loudly) with the song they were playing, can't remember what song. And the radio/ CD just stopped playing. I really don't think my singing is that bad.Me and Eliza went to play at the arcade for a while, shoot shoot shoot then we both died, i don't think we should have. We fought a good fight.Then we drove cars. Zoom zoom zoom! (that was Eliza's car). Mine was like poof poof poof! Then i got disqualified cause I drove topo slowly. Whoops.

I wanna go ECP with my clique like last time again, i miss us all.

2008

Wed, 02 Jan 2008 13:50:52 GMT

jan02.2008

I feel old. I can't believe I'm like in sec4 now!WOAH!!!I was really happy to see my friends/acquaintances and even some teachers.HAHA it's not what you think.I won't blog about teachers cause it's really risky, yupp.I don't miss school at all cause i hate studying, no one does, especially in sec 4 cause there's O levels )): Left class to teach sec 1s a couple of cheers,quite unresponsive, sadly.Oh wells it's their 1st day in sec school.I don't remember being so quiet though.It's freaky, i don't like it.Then went back to class for chem lesson,our teacher's Mrs Selbem,i was under the impression that she was Indian,don't ask why and then we went for recess and then alyssa said we had to go up to the dance studio but we wewn't supposed to go until like 1 period later,hahaha al, you dumb dumb.Then we got nagged by Mrs Thevathasan cause we were late.Had to do this math test until the bell rang and we went off for the principal's address.Rushed off after that to teach more campfire songs.My class was 1/8 today.Aiyooo so quiet but they're a nice bunch of sec1s so far i suppose.Went back to class and Mrs Low was talking about prep for self awareness camp,I'm in FOOD comm.I love food,I love food, I love food.HEH HEH HEH.And we got released like 20 minutes late, not surprisingly.Went to meet Tim after that,today's 2 months.Ate at fish and co,CALAMARI is MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.haha hung around a bit then went home.Oh Tim, thank you for staying up all night to do my present.It's very nice, I like it a lot.(((: There's 118 months left.Ily.

I'm seriously pissed

Thu, 13 Dec 2007 13:59:07 GMT

It's no secret that I'm with Timothy Titus Yap Hern Pei now. I love him. This is my first real serious relationship. And it's the most difficult. I've never faced so much opposition before, only my clique, amanda, val and al and ena are supportive of it.I know my parents are concerned about me but it sometimes comes on too strong and it sucks to not have your support, You acknowledge it but i can tell you rather he never came.My church friends, their expressions, sarcasm and disapporving glances were stone cold.Fuck. I don't need your approval.I love him. As Ena said, it really is NONE OF YOUR FUCKING BUSINESS.My maid spied on me, yes he was hugging me and carrying me but so what. I already told you mum, you already know so why only question me when my maid told you. It's my business.You say i'll be sad when we breakup, I know i'll be fuckign sad, But since when did i bother you when i was sad. since when did you even care, fuck. all i know is i love hima nd he loves me right now so i'll bear the consequences myself when it's over. thank you for your support. i love you. fuck.

OUTING WITH CLIQUE!

Sat, 13 Oct 2007 15:01:43 GMT

I think i'm the last one to blog about this, oh man. Alright, yesterday was so fun, lianne, sam, anne, gian, val, clare, becky,manda and al. Ojay la, we didn't spend every second together but it was still fun. Thank you ANNE for giving me a lift to Bedok MRT, i don't know if you saw but i slipped a bit after getting out of the car, haha that was quite embarrassing. And VAL, you are not oily, don't worry anyway if you were, I'm sure Preston wouldn't mind, he's so oily anyway, i don't think he'll realise, he might even be the one dripping oil all over ECP. And LIANNE, I do hope you are okay, even though me and CLARE weren't there to see you immediately, we tried to get there ASAP. Please rest well and take care cause we might all faint when we get our results back on Wednesday. Although you won't faint, cause you'll do well as usual, smart girl. Oh and a very happy belated birthday to you too! MINE'S NEXT! And CLARE THE GOOSE, Thanks for being my tanning and walking partner! It was very fun, even though i did not get very tan, but i did get a bit of shirt tan y'know, the spaghetti strap tan. My chest did not get tanner i think ): At least yours did, i don't think i should have said that, but since i did, never mind. HAHA, let's compare tans on tuesday, i hope it won't fade by then. Remember ar, sit together for injections. To Becky and Al, thanks for walking with me back to the shelter and being bitchy to cheena ah lians on the way, argh i can't stand hazel eyed hottie. And to the rest of the clique, thanks for making the day so fun, I love you all! And phototaking was fun too, with clare constantly forgetting to put the timer thing! And i hate my slippers, everytime i tried to jump, my slipper flew off. Damn slipper, it made me get blisters too. I can't wait for out next big clique outing, and I WANT PHOTOS, THANK YOU (((:

Tue, 07 Aug 2007 13:57:34 GMT

So much has changed but there's still love among us . And that's why it hurts because I love all of you so much and I really do. I talked to Val that day, she noticed, I think some of us noticed, how many do? We're drifting and I'm not helping because everytime I fail, I feel more and more inadequate and when you know someone chooses someone over you, it fucking hurts, so I'm just taking everything as it comes and I hope by some miracle, our friendship can tide over this whole episode. I can't stand it, I've just notcied but it seems like eternity.

today

Wed, 01 Aug 2007 13:47:43 GMT

Well, you're different, you've changed and you're not who you used to be. Are you okay? Well, i hope you are. Sometimes I catch a few fleeting glimpses of who you used to be and I wished you could still be the girl I used to know and love. Maybe something's happened but I probably don't know. I wouldn't, I don't know half the things people are talking about, I can tell that people are getting exasperated and irritated. Everyone feels so different, so distant, I can't feel the closeness anymore. I can talk comfortably and hold a casual long conversation like I did with you last time. It's like I belong but I don't, I can get along with almost everyone but I'm not particularly close to anyone. I wish I could still be where and who I was last year, everyone's changed, even myself, I can't even recognise people I thought I knew anymore, I can't identify with myself, what the fuck has happened? I don't know. I thought I had changed for the better, getting myself busy with stuff, taking on extra responsibilities and all but maybe that decision was just wrong. I would give up anything, anything that has any value or importance to me to return to last year. It's been a fucking half-a-year, and maybe I just missed out on so much, just being busy with stuff. I regret.

Sat, 28 Jul 2007 13:25:27 GMT

I'm really bored la, sighhhh
There's only training once a week and the last one was super painful i swear
(although I kind of cheated for the split split thing)
And I REALLY regret saying no pain no gain
And I like Coach Michelle's shorts but she got them from Taiwan so I can't get them
Damn.
Okay, now. NE. Mr Tan pulled out, Lianne and Alyssa cannot do because of promenade, means NE is going to be really boring.
I realised that there are 30+ pages to study for SS but I kind of studied that before but it was the start of the year which means I would have forgotten chapter 2 by now.
And my mum's going to put me on a low-carb, high fibre diet. I think I'm going to die. I love food and I abhore vegies.
I must not lose focus, I must not succumb to temptation. I will stop after I've reached 45kg. I can do this, yes I can.
Or at least, I will TRY. hahaha

demon obsession

Mon, 16 Jul 2007 13:16:07 GMT

I'm not myself, i feel weird and angry. Fuck the world. Fuck. I hate the world and the world hates me. I get irritated so easily, it's like every small thing pisses the fuck outta me. Why? Dammit.

10 July

Tue, 10 Jul 2007 13:32:18 GMT

It's 10th of July. Does it mean anything to you at all? Because it has been exactly one year and the pain still burns like fuck.
I told myself I won't miss you but I remember what it feels like beside you
After you walked out of my life, i never had a proper relationship, you're the fucking reason why i don't want a steady relationship anymore.
You aren't perfect, far from it in fact but i never blamed you for it. I did my best.
FUCK.
okay. enough. You sound pathetic Gladys Seah, you can do much better than him.

Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:

so who's ur new boyfriend
gladys alexandria seah; GAS Faustaaaa says:
no one, today is my one year anniversary breakup with gabriel
Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:
U ACTUALLY REMEMBERED?
gladys alexandria seah; GAS Faustaaaa says:
yeah
gladys alexandria seah; GAS Faustaaaa says:
i fucking loved him la more than anyone
Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:
well u know.
Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:
to tell u the truth
Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:
i think gabriel was playing with u
gladys alexandria seah; GAS Faustaaaa says:
no surprise, he isn't the only one
Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:
name another.
gladys alexandria seah; GAS Faustaaaa says:
not so nice seeing that you know most of them
Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:
really?!
Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:
i only know one what
Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:
gabriel
Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:
its ok u can tell me
gladys alexandria seah; GAS Faustaaaa says:
i don't want to, but I played too la, i'm not innocent myself, maybe i do deserved to be played
Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:
i see
Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:
annndd because after he broke up with u like 1 day later he was chasing sarah
gladys alexandria seah; GAS Faustaaaa says:
yeah i guessed as much. sigh, are you going for his party?
Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:
yea
Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:
im organising
Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:
relax ok hun?
Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:
anyway
Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:
i gtg
Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:
bye
Domi❤-Teeth The Size of Pianos says:
talk to u tomorrow
gladys alexandria seah; GAS Faustaaaa says:
okay byebye
Now I know. Fuckit. Just fucking get out of my mind and get out of my mind, dammit. I hate you. I hate you.

This Saturday, i'm gonna be so busy
The Twisters are going to perform in Ngee Ann city for the SYF closing ceremony.
Shit la now I can't watch Harry potter with clique, damn.
After that I have to chose whether I want to go for Gabriel's party, Anne's party or the gathering with all the neighbours.
Okay the gathering with neighbours is out because all the aunties and ah sohs going to be there and they are going to nag, complain, compare and be aunties.Mum says I can misss it so that's fine.
Okay Gabriel's party, ermmmm maybe i'll pass, I just don't want or can't bear to see some things.
Anne Xue's party, okay I'll go. YAY!

Boys suck.
Smile.

Cheerobics

Sun, 01 Jul 2007 14:14:58 GMT

I have blogged in FOREVER
but I REALLY want to remember this
Ij Twisters. I always dreaded training until this year. I never thought I'd be so attached to cheer, but now I can't emphasise how important cheer - the whole squad, coach, the tough training, the bitching is to me. I hated the people, well most of them. Thought they were the bitchiest people in the whole school, they had problems with me too. But now after one full month and all the shit, pain, happiness, relief, shock, so many emotions we endured together, I realised how much I was going to miss them. Especially my seniors, I'm sorry for being such an ass, I really love all of you and every single one of you made a difference in my life. When the results were announced, we got second, as a team. We cried, all for different reasons, I saw that that performance was the last we would ever perform together as the IJ TWISTERS, and all the talks, miss tiru and coach telling us well done, that we brought them pride and all made me cry. I guess Friday was just really emotional la. I love the TWISTERS, it has become more than a CCA to me, i realised that I had been going for training not because I had to but because I wanted to. Next year is my final year in IJ and my final year in the Twisters, I really want to contribute and help to bring back the championship. It's going to be really hard without YVELYN, CLAUDIA PHUAH, PHYLLICIA, JILL, MICHELLE MICHAEL, NATALIE CHAN, ALYSSA, sorry if i missed out your name but you guys are really the best in the squad, how are we going to win without you, most of you have been in cheer since i was sec1, i can't imagine cheering without you screaming at me, encouraging me and just making cheer such a wonderful cca, thank you.

Shabooyah sha sha shabooyah roll call
my name is gladys , yeah
they say I'm stupid, yeah
but everyone knows, yeah
that I have spirit, YEAH!

To Whitely, thanks for letting us use your hall, training with you guys was really fun, I love your SYF cheer!
To Chong Boon, you're a GREAT squad, you will do MUCH BETTER next year, cheer up guys!
To MGS, congratulations, I'm sure you gusy trained really hard!
To the Twisters, I can't say anything good enough but thank you so much, I love you forever.

To Karlo and Leonard, thank you for the banner and for coming down to support me, I really appreciated it. Dinner was fun too, with you guys eating SO MUCH. And thank you Nigel, Aaron lee, Nerissa, Theresa, Darren, Karlo and Leonard again. You guys rock and thank you for the flowers and twisties banner, i finished the twisters already. haha

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ECP-clique(:

Fri, 11 May 2007 12:57:21 GMT

I went out with the clique today,
felt the happiest I've been for a very long time
I love you guys so much and I'm fucking missing all of you right NOW.
Anne, Gian(Jiow), Val, Al, Manda, Lianne, Sam (:
I exfoliated and got sunburnt! Damn. I tried to get rid of tannlines but now I have more. Shit la. I have a bikini tan, a sleeveless shirt tan and the fair part that was obviously covered, LOL
Sleeping on the breakwater was damn shiok, nice warm sunny sun, and a gentle cooling sea breeze, the sound of my best friends voices. Just the really comforting atmosphere.
Food was good, sand was good. Weather wasn't that great but fuck, idc.
My skin feels smooth now, and a bit sore from too much sand.
Camwhoring was damn retarded and fun too!
I MISS Y'ALL.
Okay, then went to Vivo with Eliza and her tim tan
Me and Eliza ate at superdog which was ex but quite yummy
then we met tim tan, spiderman was sold on so we watched Bridge to Terabithia.
It was damn nice, I loved the entire show. But it was so sad when lesley died. I was like really trying not to cry la. Damn. I don't mind watching again but I'm just flatout broke lar. Okay then we walked around a bit, met a lot of ij-ians LOL. Then I went home leaving Tim and Eliza ALONE. (: HMMMMM some privacy la. Who knows what MAY happen? (wiggles eyebrows)
I'm waiting for photos to be sent so I can post them.
TODAY WAS PURE FUN.

fuckyou,

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 14:05:36 GMT

I'm sorry I can't be perfect, maybe you aren't either, but the only difference is,I'll never blame you for it

I'm sorry I can be the perfect friend
I'm sorry I can't be the perfect daughter
I'm sorry I can't be the perfect girlfriend
I'm sorry I can't be the perfect sister
I'm sorry for being me.

I'm sick of this shit lar. Why can't you behave normally, I DON'T WANT YOU TO BE EXTRAORDINARY, just act normal will you? Stop arguing with mummy all the time. It's fucking driving me crazy, I can listen to all your boring shit and pretend to be interested, why can't you do the same? I just realised how fake and bitchy you were and I thought you were my closest friend for fifteen wasted, fucked up years. You thought I was sleeping weren't you? Well, I had just about woken up and heard enough. I hate you. You are one of the reasons why I think my life sucks sometimes.
You dare say I study like I study for the family
Guess what? I actually am.
You know you don't exactly have of a future.I work hard now so I can have a reasonably paying job next time
I want our parents to be comfortable in their old age
Can you promise that? I can't but I want to make sure I do my best.
YOu never understood me, and never tried
Why did God almighty make you my sister?

I'm exhausted, I really am.
I forgot to bring home e math. I'm fucking screwed.
Oh wells, doesn't make much of a difference anyways.

GOD, don't let me breakdown now, I need your heavenly strength to carry on. AMEN.

tata young-Call him mine
I can call him mine

It was only a matter of time
Before I got tired of your ways
I tried to make you fire,
But you were only ice
And you didn’t seem to wanna change

So then I looked at someone new
And he was looking back at me too
Saw that I was hurt
Knew just what to say
Knew just how to push the pain away

You know I need stability
And you know you can’t give it to me

Chorus
My sun may never rise the way it did with you,
And he may never kiss me the way that you’d do
But at least he makes me feel like a part of his life
At least he doesn’t make me cry
I know I can call him mine

Though when I call him on the phone
I never feel butterflies
I know that I can trust
He’ll always give me love
And I know mine will grow for him in time

He tells me that I’m beautiful
And I never ever heard that from you
He doesn’t cause me pain
Tears falling like the rain
And though I’m still in love with you
You know I need stability

(Chorus)

It wasn’t easy letting go but I know that I had to think of the long run and say goodbye
And find someone who appreciates me even though even though…..

My sun may never rise the way it did with you
And he may never ever kiss me the way that you’d do, that you’d do…

(Chorus)

The sun may never rise again like it did with you
And he may never ever kiss me the way you’d do
But at least he makes me feel like I’m a part of his life
He doesn’t make me cry
Doesn’t make me cry
He doesn’t make me cry
I know I can call him mine